RECOVERY IS JUST A LOAD OF BALLS. METAPHORICALLY.

Seriously.

In French there is a saying: “le mieux est l’ennemi du bien”. Translation: The best is the enemy of the good. I can’t think of a phrase more truthful about mental health recovery. 

The best is doing everything. In my head this is running around; getting top notch A Levels, spontaneously producing poetry and blog posts, finding somewhere great to live, learning more languages, pointing my finger at the government on Twitter and… Being healthy I guess. But if I’m honest my ideal doesn’t specifically contain being recovered. It’s just a fact that in order to achieve these things I would have to be. I haven’t achieved this basic requirement but I’m still going for it full throttle. Day in, day out I’m turning up to the tracks wearing pizza boxes on my feet and hoping to be Usaine Bolt. I’m tripping and falling and generally being stupid because, the truth is, recovery is a load of balls!

No, really.

You have to, like everyone else, juggle like crazy to catch all the things life throws at you. You didn’t learn to juggle properly so, inevitably and without warning, you lose control. You drop everything and have to start again. 

The bit I need to get my head around is that no one learns to juggle with eight balls. They start with one and work their way up, dropping odd ones on the way but eventually getting into the rythmn of life. Of course you can stop juggling and put them all down: but that is your decision. You’re being strategic and stopping for a break before everything crashes down. After you’ve rested, eaten a few cheesy snacks and gulped a cup of tea you can start juggling again. Crisis averted. 

I apologise for the long analogy. But recovery is a load of balls and I have to learn to juggle one way or another. It’s just deciding what takes priority. By trying to get the best am I missing what would actually be really, really good for me? 

  

5 thoughts on “RECOVERY IS JUST A LOAD OF BALLS. METAPHORICALLY.

  1. You gave the best answer with your sweet photo of Noodle, Mel and tea.
    They are what make it worthwhile, they and a few special people.
    There is the reason we hang in there, at the end of the day they ALWAYS love us.

  2. One thing that worked for me: focus less on the symptoms (big HAIRY balls IMHO) and focus more on your needs. Life throws a lot at you and this can disrupt your ability to really attune to what you need, and when you don’t attune to and nurture your needs, the symptoms result. Thank you for sharing your very heartfelt blog with the world!

  3. Hi, I hope you dont mind me saying this here but I was at the conference on Wednesday. I thought what you did was brave and took a lot of strength. I also think it was so important to remind the audience that there are people on the other side of the services. Thanks, Helen

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