Maybe I’m A Party Pooper… But…

I don’t *get* Halloween. I don’t understand it and I don’t like it. Why do we have a day to celebrate scary things? Where is the joy in scaring people and being petrified? More importantly why have we been bombarded with it since ‘back to school’ left the shelves back in September ?

I don’t think myself, as an anxious person, and Halloween mix. I’m dreading the knocks on the door tomorrow night; figures in black and masks, drinking and noise. Even if it is just kids from down the road- it sounds like a recipe for panic attacks.

The one thing I hate the most is that there is no ‘Halloween Opt Out Scheme’. I can’t wear some kind of badge that says “Please do not scream stuff at me- I may have a brake down”. There is no way to get across that you are genuinely terrified on a night that glorifies being genuinely terrified. Some people seem to believe that Halloweeen gives them the God given right to be nasty. Teasing spooking and scaring- “AH COME ON ITS HALLOWEEN.”

It’s not that I’m a wimp or a spoilsport- but I find something very unsavoury about the celebration. People seem to think it is a lisence to do anything they like to whoever they like. Just bear in mind that not everyone is ‘in the spirit’ -pun- of Halloween. So just be respectful, okay?
I’m probably spending this year with a book and hoping to all the lucky stars that no one knocks on the door. Can’t we hibernate until Bonfire Night is over?

I’d love to know if anyone else with anxiety/mental health problems feels this way too, at the moment I feel like a massive party pooper and a rubbish teenager. I did however feel the need to take this cute snap of little Mél inside a pumpkin bag from Tesco!

3 thoughts on “Maybe I’m A Party Pooper… But…

  1. I’m exactly the same. Absolutely hate everything about Halloween (kind of obvious when I have a fear of masks) I avoid everything even remotely related to it. Someone else can answer the door while I stay in bed and if not, I’ll make myself a sign for the door saying ‘Anxiety Disorder. Do not disturb’. I don’t think people really understand, I have my friends trying to persuade me to watch horror films and I can’t explain that I actually cannot watch because I don’t have much understanding of which is reality, especially at night, and I will probably see each of them being hurt like in the film later.. So yes, you are definitely not on your own feeling like this!

  2. I am with you all the way….I hate Halloween. In the Midwest kids are not to bother the house if the porch light is not on. But I still hide in the bedroom with a book! Plus I am scared some bad person may do harm to my kitties. You are not a party pooper. Hug Noodle and Mel close, I will be praying for you. You will be safe.

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